I’m back from South Africa!! And boy, do I have a lot to share with you. So, I thought I’d pack the biggest insights I received into one video, and share them with you all at once. I’ve covered topics such as
- Why do people trophy hunt amazing animals?
- What we can learn from South Africans about healing deep wounds
- My own, massive leveling up of my Abundance Vibe
So, watch today’s video and prepare to be bombarded with awesomeness! Yay!
I’ve just got back from one of the most spiritual trips of my entire life. I was in the South African bush for an entire week and as there were so many learnings, so many aha moments, so much healing, I decided to make a video and share some of the most important aha moments that I had while I was there. It’s a little bit of a mish-mash today, no specific topic, just a whole bunch of things thrown in together; but I think you will enjoy it
Again, this trip to South Africa was one of the most spiritual experiences of my entire life. As you know I’ve spent quite a bit of time down in Peru where I’ve done Ayahuasca and San Pedro ceremonies, and those were all amazing and mind blowing, and I’ll continue to go back as long as they continue to serve me. This trip to South Africa, though, was in a completely different category. I will try and describe what I experienced, but I’m finding as I’m trying to tell people what I experienced, words are completely failing me. You’ll have to listen for the energy that is being transmitted here, because it’s like somebody saying to you, “Well I’ve discovered it’s really about loving myself,” to which you might reply “Duh!” But they might have understood the concept of self-love on a completely different level. Words cannot connote the different levels at which we can understand something, so please keep that in mind.
The energy of South Africa
The first thing I noticed when I stepped off the plane in Johannesburg was that I was instantly hit with an energy that was so humbling, so amazing, and so raw. This was my first time on the African continent as a whole, so I can only really speak about what I experienced in South Africa and about where I was. To me, it had this old, this origin energy flavor to it (this is how I would describe it). This was different to what I might have expected it to be, if I’d allowed myself to have an expectation. Although, I always do my best not to have any expectations when I go on trips like this, except for the fact that I think it’s going to be awesome; and it always is. The energy wasn’t particularly soothing; it was actually quite raw, which makes sense, because it’s the raw building block energy of creation from what I felt. It has a tendency, I think, to shake things up and to bring things up. It can go into a positive or negative direction, but it’s definitely going to do something, because there’s a lot of it.
The healing in South Africa
I found that a lot of people were getting triggered in different ways; a lot of people were being opened up in different ways. There was also a tremendous amount of healing going on and I found myself interacting in a very child-like way a lot of the time. I was very humbled. I felt I was a baby, like I didn’t really know anything; I was just observing, asking questions and doing my best to take it all in. The first couple of days I was there, my brain was having a hard time wrapping itself around the fact that I was even there, and that I was seeing what I was seeing, and experiencing what I was experiencing. It was phenomenal. One of the things that I noticed straightaway was just how open, how friendly and how open-hearted all the locals were, which was absolutely incredible! I was having a conversation with a black South African, who was very gracious and answered all of my questions. I said to him that I wouldn’t blame them if when we got off the plane at the airport, if they all kicked us back on the plane and told us how we foreigners didn’t get to come here anymore; that they were sick of our shit. Or tell us to get out because we’ve done enough damage. But they don’t. When we talked about it, the thing that I noticed was how there has been such a tremendous amount of healing that has happened in a very short amount of time in South Africa.
Apartheid didn’t end that long ago, and people are very willing to talk to you about it and to give you their impressions. There is so much information that we didn’t get in the media, so much that we were not told about. When you go there and talk to people you get an impression about what it was really like. People were living in a war zone for a very long time, never knowing if they were going to get shot in the street. They had to walk over bodies, they had to flee and they were in a constant state of fear. They’ve gone from that to a tremendous amount of healing in a short amount of time; just a couple of decades. It doesn’t mean there are no problems left in South Africa, but the healing is so apparent everywhere you go. After talking to people and reading the energy of it and bouncing some of my impressions off of the locals, I came to the conclusion that a big part of this healing has been facilitate by the fact that South Africans (and I’m told Africans as a whole), are people who don’t run away from issues; they’d rather face them. I could certainly see that. There was nothing being brushed under the carpet and nobody was talking about anything in an accusatory sort of way, even though they were talking about horrific things. There weren’t accusations; it was more about allowing it to bubble up and allowing it to come out. It was more of a recognition of things that had happened. Yes these things were terrible, but they always talked about them from a willingness to heal, which was absolutely phenomenal to witness; it was mind blowing to witness. To be able to see people who are so willing to step into healing, so willing to face their shit, to own their shit (both white and black South Africans), was an incredible display of what is possible when people open themselves up to healing and face something instead of running away.
There is a tremendous amount that can be learned by going to South Africa, and one of the biggest conversations that I kept having with people was that we shouldn’t go to Africa to try and fix them. We can help, but if we want to help, we should ask people what it is they need from us, and then we give them that. Don’t just arrogantly go over there and spread your help around, regardless of whether it’s wanted or needed, or not. I think we should stop going over to Africa to try and fix it; we should go to Africa to learn, because there is a tremendous amount we can learn there.
The bush and the animals
The second thing that I noticed was when I was in the bush – I am going to try and say that without giggling! I have been practicing, but my inner thirteen year old with the wicked sense of humor wants to giggle at that word; every time!! When we were in the bush and we were able to interact and view animals like Lions (both female and male), Elephants, Giraffes, Zebras, Impalas, Rhinos (a whole family of Rhinos!), Buffaloes, Wildebeests, Cheetahs; so many animals! I noticed how we got hit with this absolute magnificence and this incredible power that you don’t tend to connect with when you see an animal like this in a zoo or in some kind of enclosure. I think they have to be in their natural habitat, they have to be in their power for us to really feel this. One of the first insights I had when a Bull Elephant turned towards me and looked me straight in the eye, and I was hit with all that energy, was that I suddenly understood why people kill animals like this. I understood why trophy hunters go into the bush. I will be totally honest with you, I haven’t gotten past my judgment of trophy hunters yet, there’s still a little bit of a twinge still in there when I think about them, but I am working on it. I now understand why people kill animals like this, because if someone has any unworthiness in them, if they have a lot of unworthiness in them and they are faced with such power, such beauty, such magnificence, they are either going to shift up into that magnificence or they are going to try to crush it. It is my opinion in the way that I read the energy that people who look at an animal like this and they think they have to kill him is that they are trying to conquer that, they are trying to own that, because they don’t feel they have it in themselves. And they have to feel that way to a large enough degree to create that kind of reaction, but to a stubborn enough degree they won’t allow themselves to be uplifted by these animals.
I was struck by these animals, just as I was with the South African people with their willingness to step into healing again and again. Make no mistake about it; these animals don’t have to show themselves to humans. We were in a giant private animal reserve, about 150 thousand acres, so they have plenty of space to go to; they don’t need to be where we were. They have all kinds of warning systems, because the birds and the prey animals warn each other, so they knew where we were and they knew we were there. They don’t ever have to be where we are, they could avoid us, no problem; and yet they don’t. They show up again and again and again and allow us to see them. I sent energy to every single animal that I saw. I sent an energy of gratitude, and I got a few “you’re welcomes” back! I became very aware that it was a voluntary thing from them to let us see them, an act of absolute grace. Again, we haven’t made it easy for them to connect with us. We’ve been quite naughty in hunting animals, hunting many of them into extinction, or near extinction, and yet they continue to show up for us, to mirror back to us our humanity (or lack thereof), and they will continue to do that until we get it. I was in absolute awe, so appreciative of these animals and their willingness, again, to help us in our healing, that at times I was just tearing up with gratitude and appreciation, while at the same time my mind was trying to wrap itself around what I was actually seeing. OH MY GOD; that’s all I can say! If you get a chance to go on Safari in Africa, South Africa or in any of the surrounding countries, do it, do it, do it. I can’t recommend it highly enough. I’m definitely going back.
My personal aha moment about abundance
The final big moment of clarity that I want to share with you guys is one that was very personal for me and one that was my “aha” moment. It is to do with abundance. I was able to level up in a massive way about abundance and it happened in the most amazing way! Yes, the Universe is just the greatest!
I am a person who is very social; I’m very extroverted a lot of the time; until I’m not. When I’m not, I need time to come back in and cocoon a little bit, and I need a little bit of solitary time where I can get quite introverted. At one point, there was so much bombarding me and so much going on that I decided I needed some time to process; I needed some time to be alone. Instead of joining the group and going out with them, I decided I would spend a few hours by myself. Everybody left for an excursion and I stayed behind; and here’s what happened: Instead of getting up at 5:30 in the morning and going out to the bush, I slept until 7:30, which normally isn’t a sleeping-in time for me, but it was out there, because you have to go out before it gets too hot. That morning, I had a private 5 star chef cook breakfast, just for me. I had a private butler, who was there just for me, and a house manager there, just for me. There were a whole bunch of other staff taking care of the place, and it felt a little bit like it was all just for me; it was amazing.
I will be really honest with you, warts and all. The day before, when I’d made the decision I wasn’t going to go on the excursion the next morning, the chef came up to me and asked me what I’d like to eat in the morning. I swear to god you guys, something like this actually came out of my mouth: “Don’t worry, I don’t want to cause a fuss, just show me where the cereal is, I’ll sit in the corner and I’ll sadly eat my cereal alone!!” I didn’t really say that last bit like that; it was something more along the lines of, “Oh just something simple, you don’t have to make a fuss for me.”
He looked at me with a confused look and told me that he was a 5 star chef so could I just let him do his thing?! When he reacted this way, it was sort of like being hit in the back of the head with a frying pan and I thought “what am I doing?! Wait…what?! Why am I not just letting this in?” It really opened my eyes, so I proceeded to challenge him and tell him all the stuff I didn’t like and all the stuff I did like. The next morning he made me a magnificent breakfast and I sat there allowing these people to support me and to serve me, not because I needed them to, and not because I was overwhelmed and couldn’t take it and I’d thankfully had somebody to delegate to, but because it was so joyful for me and it was also their joy and their pleasure to support me. Something opened up within me, on a level that I had not reached before, where I let a whole new level of support in.
At night, sitting having dinner with everyone and with the staff, we always talked about our magic moments, like the barbeques we’d eaten out in the bush, the 5 or 6 star service and the African sunset, which was magnificent. But for me, what I had found magical on that day, was this feeling of being so supported by people whose joy it was to support others and me realizing it’s not decadent to have a private chef, or a butler, or to have people catering just to you. It’s not something you have to justify by saying “I need this”, it’s actually a beautiful dance when they are doing something that brings them joy. For these guys, it’s to create peak experiences for people, and to fulfil their every wish. When they are doing that, when they are living in their joy, it supports me living in my joy and supports me in providing my value in the way that I can. It becomes this beautiful symbiotic dance, instead of when I’m paying somebody to do my laundry for me and maybe this person doesn’t want to do it. Taking it completely out of that paradigm into allowing people whose joy it is to support you, and in doing so it frees you up to live in your joy.
Words fail me here because it’s not like I didn’t know that before, but I got it on a completely different level. It just opened me up; it opened up my heart and I ended up crying and thanking the staff for being my teachers and showing me what it’s like to be supported by people who adore doing that, and they ended up crying as well… It was a beautiful moment! There was so much appreciation going on and so much celebrating going on; it was incredibly healing.
Flowing energy to my business
I reached this whole new level of abundance, along with tons of aha moments about my business, about flowing energy in different ways into my business, and the next steps to come which, up till now, I’ve been struggling with. Those of you who have been with me for a long time know that I have been announcing how I am going to be doing this, and then announcing something else, and then… no wait I’m going to do that… and then nothing shows up. It’s because there was a lack of clarity and a lot of energy rushing into a direction that I wasn’t yet quite open to. I think I opened up a lot of that on this trip, so there is some good stuff coming your way. It’s actually all going to come now! I had a lot of insights and did a lot meditation, so it’s time now. I’m really excited about what’s to come.
Guys, honestly I cannot recommend enough taking a trip like this if you ever get a chance to. I was in the Madikwe Reserve area, in a resort called the Morukuru Resort which I cannot recommend highly enough. These people really, really know what they’re doing. I was there with a group of 9 other magnificent women and we called ourselves “The Bush Witches!” (#bushwitches!!) We were incredibly good at manifesting! We would go out into the bush with the game viewer, this is what the open jeeps are called, and we would talk about some animal, it didn’t matter what it was, even something obscure, and within minutes that animal would show up! We saw this happen again and again. We were that good at manifesting animals that even the Guides and the Trackers were saying how this wasn’t normal and telling us how our group was…holy crap!! (Of course, we were!) The whole thing just escalated and escalated; it just got better and better. We were driving through the bush and suddenly there was a Cheetah just sitting there waiting for us to look at it. We’d turn another corner and there was a pride of female lions who had just taken down a Giraffe and we were getting to watch them, actually gorging themselves on this Giraffe, which is not something you get to see often. Even the Trackers were taking selfies with the lions (from a safe distance)!
I do hope I can put together a little video with some of the footage and the pictures that we took, but I’m waiting on other people to share their pictures with me. I’m not a good photographer which became even more apparent when trying to take pictures of wildlife. I simply allowed myself to experience what was happening, while other people took the pictures. They’ve promised to share those pictures with me, so when they do, I will share them with you, as I know a lot of you are interested in seeing them. Hopefully, I’ll be able to convey more of this energy from this (honestly) life-changingly awesome trip. Again, I cannot recommend it highly enough. Hopefully, even if you don’t end up to going to Africa, you’ve been inspired by me sharing it, you’ve learnt a few things and you’ve had a few aha moments today from this video. I know I threw a lot at you but I just wanted to give it all to you, so there you go! Ha.
Thank you, thank you, thank you for bringing your light to the world. You guys are awesome; you don’t know just how awesome you are!
That’s it for this week; bye!